For once, i've REALLY studied for a test. no seriously, this is the FIRST time. REALLY studying. i don't know what motivated me to study. the fear or failing once again? i know i can't afford to, maybe that's why. or could it be, that for once i wanna do better than most, instead of believing i'll always be the last?

whatever it is that keeps me going, i wanna keep doing this. if i just keep studying like this for mid-years, or until i finish education, i'm sure i'll do well. or at least i'll know i've done my best.

i really wanna do well for once. prove that i can do it. no one should look down on me. cos i can make it.

and someday i'll prove to the world, i'm not a failure, i can accomplish anything. it all depends on whether i want to or not.

oh and i hope, i do well for chemistry test tomorrow, even though i'm really freaking out (cos seriously, i drank tea, ate junk food, even stuck my head into the fridge just to keep myself awake). and i'll do what i do best. memorise ;D