i wonder if you'd figured it out. i hope you haven't.

no, really. i know i can get kinda freaky when it comes to these kinda stuff. well at least i'm not as freaky as i used to be.

valentine's day is coming up. i know that i won't have a valentine as usual. no one would wanna be my valentine. i'm probably the most imperfect person around.

i'm lazy, scream a lot, materialistic, bad temper, demanding etc.

but i think i could forget everything if you'd love me.

you know there's one thing about me. i'm afraid of most people, even my closest friends sometimes. i always feel inferior to everyone else. so sometime's when i have that bitch stuck-up face when i'm walking alone, it's cos i'm insecure, and that's the only thing that could possibly make me feel safe. and if i'm by myself with a lost expression, many times about to cry, that's when i'm not pretending. it's what i'm afraid to show others. that really i'm too scared to face the world alone.

so whatever you hate about me, believe me, that's not really who i am. for all the stupid, bitchy stuff that i do, it's because it's the only way i feel brave.

i wish i didn't have to worry about all these stuff. but all the competition out there for all sorts of things. i'd be trampled on if i just be who i am.

i don't really know what i'm saying. i mean honestly i wish i could tell the whole world how much i like you. but that'd be quite meaningless since you probably don't even care.

i'm just saying all the stuff i'd really want you to know, though they may or may not make sense. yeah i guess that's all.