How much easier life would be, if someone would just love me right now. Then maybe i'd have someone to rely on, not be afraid of, someone who would care about me 24/7.

Cos i don't seem to have anyone that i'm not afraid of, or someone i can rely on, and i definitely don't think anyone would care about me 24/7.

must i wonder forever how different life would be?

do i need to bear the torture of seeing everyone leave?

i know that i push away those who would love me any second of the day,
and i keep close to me, those who would never even care. tell me why i'm so stupid.

i know i keep dreaming of perfect endings, and i know that they don't exist, or maybe they just dont because no one ever believes in them.

and for now, i just wanna believe that someone actually does care about me out there, i just haven't met that person yet.