remember when i said,
"i might forget him as soon as i forget others"?

i'm afraid, that came true. and...sometimes someone new comes along again. or maybe not new, but...

anyway that doesn't matter does it? when you know that your life is screwed, when you realise that you can't get what you want, and others always get it. sometimes feeling like you're unwanted.

and honestly i have so much to say, i KNOW that i have things to say, but right now i'm so upset and confused, i'm having a headache, and i can't think anymore.

and there i was, thinking that there was still a glimmer of hope. stupid of me.