damn. this is gonna take another 1.5 months to recover from. anyway.

went to farrer park/little india to find ann-marie today. sji inter-class games. damn awkward at first, watching from the distance, then slowly we went closer, but we went to hide behind a hut thingy everytime a small group of guys would walk in our direction, cos i was trying to hide from anybody i knew, particularly the ruggers, in case i suddenly started hearing some curses from nowhere. anyway, in the end kena spotted, by Colin at first. gawd am i that recognisable? after that saw Evan walking near...and i think someone mentioned me, and he was like saying DAMN loudly, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" and i dragged ann-marie away to the swimming complex to hide. after running around here and there for awhile, suddenly andrew and cheng ying appear out of nowhere. then suddenly all the ruggers were there and i dragged ann-marie away again.

it was kinda funny actually. oh and we met darryl hahaha. i kept disturbing him today, but he made me buy drink for him ):

okay the whole day was fun and all, but despite that, in the last half hour, i didn't have any spirit already. 2 reasons. first, of all the ruggers i knew, i only hadn't seen one. the whole.fucking.five.hours. actually when i was leaving i saw the side of his face for like a split second. anyway second reason, well same thing as yesterday but whatever.

but honestly, today just sucked. somehow. it rocked and sucked at the same time. i think i'm gonna go mad.

no matter how many more i know, no matter how many more may care for me, i still can't forget you, and i'm thinking to myself, thats unacceptable